Just another night twisting, tearing sheets, sweating, 
  but not screaming
Never screaming
Never screaming
I stare into the darkness just like the night before.
This is the moment I realize
I've forgotten the boundary between sanity and madness, and
[Less importantly]
I've forgotten which side I'm on.

This is the moment all possibilities are open to me.
Fear
Fear holds me back.
A child of logic living in pure intuition
And terrified.
I live a timeless eternity, a nanosecond
Then sleep,
Blessed sleep


The morning brings slow remembrance of life
And leaves only the terror and the longing.

                                        S.D.  5/11/94